legend
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Sorta personal but i need to vent.
I have a GPA of a 3.1 and i am a junior in college and i have to start looking medical schools. I feel so stressed and upset like my future is covered up. The odds are i may have to go overseas to a medical school because it is so expensive and almost impossible to get into a decent school.
The thing is i dont want to leave the country for school but will if i have no choice. I am interested in studying Anesthesiology.....
The thing is when i am gone i will be gone for two years. Two years seems like a long time to be away from everything i know. I cant come back because i wont be able to afford the air fair. I'm only 20 and will be on my own without a friend in the strange part of the world.
I wont have any friends, i will be alone, no love, in a strange place around strange people. I just feel lost in what i should do. Do i keep pushing to become a doctor? I have only a couple more steps left and than i have to make a choice. My grades are decent but i am no a genius trying to claim a noble prize. I'm just a average guy that loves challenges and is willing to work very hard to get ahead.
What do i do? Just put away these feelings i have and jump on that plane to south america? Or wait around like a bum trying to get into a school in the states?
I guess i am just scared of leaving everything i know.....this will be a big change for me and the day for me to make a choice is coming up faster then i would like. Once i get on that plane the odds are i will never be back for good. I will be in a strange place with no friends reading all day and all night, sentance after sentance, word are word. I feel lost......
Sorry for this rant i just needed to get this off my chest before i go to bed. If anyone has any comments please give them to me. :nervous:
I'm sure it wont be so bad when i get there but the living conditions are very harsh.
I have a GPA of a 3.1 and i am a junior in college and i have to start looking medical schools. I feel so stressed and upset like my future is covered up. The odds are i may have to go overseas to a medical school because it is so expensive and almost impossible to get into a decent school.
The thing is i dont want to leave the country for school but will if i have no choice. I am interested in studying Anesthesiology.....
The thing is when i am gone i will be gone for two years. Two years seems like a long time to be away from everything i know. I cant come back because i wont be able to afford the air fair. I'm only 20 and will be on my own without a friend in the strange part of the world.
I wont have any friends, i will be alone, no love, in a strange place around strange people. I just feel lost in what i should do. Do i keep pushing to become a doctor? I have only a couple more steps left and than i have to make a choice. My grades are decent but i am no a genius trying to claim a noble prize. I'm just a average guy that loves challenges and is willing to work very hard to get ahead.
What do i do? Just put away these feelings i have and jump on that plane to south america? Or wait around like a bum trying to get into a school in the states?
I guess i am just scared of leaving everything i know.....this will be a big change for me and the day for me to make a choice is coming up faster then i would like. Once i get on that plane the odds are i will never be back for good. I will be in a strange place with no friends reading all day and all night, sentance after sentance, word are word. I feel lost......
Sorry for this rant i just needed to get this off my chest before i go to bed. If anyone has any comments please give them to me. :nervous:
I'm sure it wont be so bad when i get there but the living conditions are very harsh.