Can I get a do over...

beachbumtx

beachbumtx

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Well, I wish I could. I am fixing to turn 28 aqnd I feel like my life to this point has been a big waste of time. I feel like very few people, including my peers, have much respect fo me and what I have tried to acomplished. I am at a point where I just don't care about much...not even for things I used to love (like fishing).
Ah...I just don't know anymore.
 
lovethesea

lovethesea

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:nope: no bad thoughts like that! What the heck do you call rescuing all of those helpless sea creatures? And for little or no money?
Really, what you do and are learning is giving something back so that our oceans and its inhabitants will live on.
Happy Early Birthday
 
meow

meow

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Originally posted by BeachBumTX
Well, I wish I could. I am fixing to turn 28 aqnd I feel like my life to this point has been a big waste of time. I feel like very few people, including my peers, have much respect fo me and what I have tried to acomplished. I am at a point where I just don't care about much...not even for things I used to love (like fishing).
Ah...I just don't know anymore.
dude... you saved a dolphin. come on now. i'm sure that dolphin doesn't think your life was a big waste of time.
 
lovethesea

lovethesea

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AND...
You are doing this because you like it and you know it makes a difference. Its not the quantity of your input, its the quality of your input. I gave up a lot of things so that I could be there for family members who needed me. Not money, just me and my time. I didn't get anything in return, no pats on the back....just a clear conceious and satisfaction knowing that I made a difference in someones life when no one else did. Being there for someone when they need you can far outweigh many things. Believe me!
Maybe your peers feel like what you are doing may over shadow what they are doing, and they need to have all of the attention drawn to them. Some feel threatened by younger upcoming educated people who are trying to do the same as them, but know their time is limited in their field.
I don't know, but I do know what you are doing and attempting to continue doing is great stuff. Its hard work, thankless (except by people who appreciate the oceans and its fantastic creatures, except sharks :D ) But you are giving back and to hell with anyone who feels threatened by that!:)
 
birdy

birdy

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You know I think everyone goes through these funks in life, were you wonder what you are doing and why you made certain choices. I worked as a zookeeper for 5yrs, it was a very rewarding job, I got awards and I was one of the top keepers. When I found out I was having twins there was no choice for me but to stay at home and be their full time mom (money wise and just how I felt). But being a stay at home mom is not the most glorious of jobs, you feel useless and used, even though deep down you know your job is important and there are rewarding parts, for a lot of the time you get no pat's on the back or award dinners or interesting converstation. I am telling you this just because it is common to feel unrest I think especially at this age (I just turned 27), you feel like you should be somewhere accomplishing things (which by the way I think you have done great things with the rehab animals). Just stick with it and hopefully things will turn around for you. It is just those almost 30 and what have I done with my life blue's.
 
austinreef

austinreef

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28? Trust me, your life is just beginning. You will see many more highs and lows before its all said and done..
 
beachbumtx

beachbumtx

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Thanks guys and gals...
Yeah, this is one of those posts I wish I didn't make. I need to hide my laptop before I start drinking.
 
lovethesea

lovethesea

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since you originated it you can press the magic delete button.
Hope things are better today.......(except for the throbbing headache?
)
on a lighter note...hows Harley?
 
beachbumtx

beachbumtx

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Originally posted by lovethesea
since you originated it you can press the magic delete button.
Hope things are better today.......(except for the throbbing headache?
)
on a lighter note...hows Harley?
Yes, but if I simply delete it and forget about it, will I actually learn anything from it?
No headache here, but just tired. Too much sleeping during the wrong part of the day. I think I am going through a bout of depression. I usually go through this stuff in the winter when the days are shorter and there is less light exsposure. I have spent a lot of all nighters out with the dolphin since the can't get people to fill that shift. I get home about 5AM and sleep until noon or 2pm. Go to my real job and then back out with the dolphin. My light exsposure is low and may be causing this depression BS.
Harley is doing well with a few exceptions. Last week I had to repremand a volunteer who tried to pet her from the side of the tank right after a feeding and Harley freaked out. I told her that we need to remember that she is still a wild animal and we don't know how she will respond to human touch. I added that we are very luck she didn't jump out of the tank. However, her actions we seen during the following feedings. She did not eat at the next two feedings. The following two feedings she did eat, but it took her a while to do so. She had lost trust in us and didn't want to come near the feeding platform. She has since began to feed on a regualr basis.
The other problem we are having is water quality. We try doing water changes, but the bay water is worse quality then the tank. This is due to all the storms we have had in the past month and all the storm drains dumping polutants into the bay. This weekend, we will move here into a temperory pool and make artificial saltwater. We will clean up the big tank and then move her back. We want to ensure that she stays healthy.
 
cincyreefer

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Originally posted by BeachBumTX
The other problem we are having is water quality. We try doing water changes, but the bay water is worse quality then the tank. This is due to all the storms we have had in the past month and all the storm drains dumping polutants into the bay.
:eek: Are you talking about water run-off or overflow from sewage? I thought those newer epa restrictions were extremely tight from CSO's near ocean runoffs?
 
lovethesea

lovethesea

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Originally posted by BeachBumTX
t I have spent a lot of all nighters out with the dolphin since the can't get people to fill that shift.

I wish I could do it!!
What the heck was that girl thinkin' reaching into the tank like that? So Harley is swimming well? Great that she is doing so well. My kids have been asking.
I know what you mean about the light thing. I can't stand winter in STL. It starts getting dark about 4 pm. I love the long days of summer. Stays light here to about 9pm if we are lucky.
OK....now, this is something I learned from a Dr. friend of mine.
Don't drink too much when feeling down, alcohol apparently brings down your seretonin (spell) levels and if they are already a little down, the alcohol will make it worse. Don't get me wrong, I am the first one in line for a good glass a wine or a bourbon, but when I was having some family trouble (see above :) ) and he saw that I was running into some depression, he reminded me of this.
Get some sun and some sleep and post some pics of Harley when you can.
take care!
 
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daniel411

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Originally posted by cincyreefer
:eek: Are you talking about water run-off or overflow from sewage? I thought those newer epa restrictions were extremely tight from CSO's near ocean runoffs?
Alot of cities still dump raw sewage straight to the ocean. Sad, but thats the way it is, and has been for centuries.
 
beachbumtx

beachbumtx

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Originally posted by cincyreefer
:eek: Are you talking about water run-off or overflow from sewage? I thought those newer epa restrictions were extremely tight from CSO's near ocean runoffs?
Well, both. When it rains so much in short periods, the sewers overflow out through storm drains that lead into our bay systems. Anything and everything washes into the bay.
Also, with sewage treatment plants, when it rains a lot, their system floods out and they have no choice but to open their gates/pipes as much as they can and raw sewage enters into the system.
EPA makes laws, but more often then not, it is cheaper to pay fines from breaking the laws then rebuild older systems.
 
beachbumtx

beachbumtx

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Originally posted by lovethesea
I wish I could do it!!
What the heck was that girl thinkin' reaching into the tank like that? So Harley is swimming well? Great that she is doing so well. My kids have been asking.
I know what you mean about the light thing. I can't stand winter in STL. It starts getting dark about 4 pm. I love the long days of summer. Stays light here to about 9pm if we are lucky.
OK....now, this is something I learned from a Dr. friend of mine.
Don't drink too much when feeling down, alcohol apparently brings down your seretonin (spell) levels and if they are already a little down, the alcohol will make it worse. Don't get me wrong, I am the first one in line for a good glass a wine or a bourbon, but when I was having some family trouble (see above :) ) and he saw that I was running into some depression, he reminded me of this.
Get some sun and some sleep and post some pics of Harley when you can.
take care!
Don't get me wrong, I don't go out and get plastered on a regular ocassion. I might have a beer or two once week. Last night was a friend's birthday party. I really don't drink all that often.
However, I do understand hat you are saying
 
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lemme see here, we could compare war stories, ive been through the trenches of life,, and im only 25... if i had the space id write my story, but lemme tell you, if your down theres only one way to go..... UP....
youll get through the hard times, remember god doesnt give you anything you cant handel...
 
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