I need some prayers, positive thoughts, well wishes.

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siptang

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Most of you guys know what happened to me.
Recently my buddy had a miscarriage and it's taking a toll on me even more. I'm having nightmares and I'm sleeping 2 hours a night and it's taking a toll on me both mentally , physically and spiritually. I'm having it really rough last couple of days and I'm having suicidal impulses and I know I can't leave in a cowardly way and I love my wife way too much for it but it's really hard.
I would really appreciate some prayers for those who believe, positive thoughts and energy to those who doesn't please.
Sorry for the rant.. I really didn't have any where to rant... I can't have my wife see me this way and I don't want my close friends to drop everything and come to me. It would be too much of a inconvenience.
Thanks for reading and have a great day.
 
beth

beth

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Siptang, we love you! And so does God. Be at peace. That is what your lost child would want for you and your wife.
 
luvmyreef

luvmyreef

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Hang in there Richard. Who said life was gonna be easy? You gotta take the good with the bad my friend. Losses are hard. period. It takes a lot of time to adjust to them. Beth is right, your son would not want to see you and your wife so unhappy. Know that you have friends here sending you prayers.
We will help you anytime you need. :)
 
reefraff

reefraff

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You need to talk to your close friends so they can drop everything and come running to you. Thats what close friends do.....
Hang in there.
 
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siptang

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Hey Krista, Beth, Karla,reef, stdreb.
Thank you so much for the prayers, positive energy and well wishes. I really appreciated and I some how managed to get through this day and trust me it was really hard.
Reefraff - Like I said, I hate to be a burden... They have already done that for me before when it first happened and I can't and shouldn't expect it because times are tough for everyone.
stdreb - Wife is faring better these days and I don't want to put tears in her eyes today... it will end with me. Maybe it's hard to understand but this is what I can do for my wife.
sorry to cause such commotion guys and thanks once again.
 
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eric b 125

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That's a number to a crisis hotline. You can call them and talk about how you are feeling. I can understand how it might be easier to talk to strangers about things than people close to you. I am not familiar with your story and it's really none of my business, however I think that if "suicidal impulses" left your wife's or your friends lips, you would be there in a hurry. It might seem like talking to these people would stress them out even more, but take it from me, nothing is quite as stressful as discovering a loved one's body...
If you find that you aren't feeling any better, or find yourself making plans to hurt yourself, then it's time you break your silence. Until then, I will send you good vibes. There's that number you can call, and FWIW, I will PM you my phone number if for some reason you would feel comfortable talking to me.
 
reefraff

reefraff

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Originally Posted by Siptang http:///t/390308/i-need-some-prayers-positive-thoughts-well-wishes#post_3455719
Hey Krista, Beth, Karla,reef, stdreb.
Thank you so much for the prayers, positive energy and well wishes. I really appreciated and I some how managed to get through this day and trust me it was really hard.
Reefraff - Like I said, I hate to be a burden... They have already done that for me before when it first happened and I can't and shouldn't expect it because times are tough for everyone.
stdreb - Wife is faring better these days and I don't want to put tears in her eyes today... it will end with me. Maybe it's hard to understand but this is what I can do for my wife.
sorry to cause such commotion guys and thanks once again.
Dude, your friends wont care, trust me. Let them help you. They will be a whole lot more upset if they find out you were going through crap and never let them know.
 
darthtang aw

darthtang aw

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hang in there. god has a reason for all things and nev er gives us more to bear than we can truly handle. as long as we use our resources for coping correctly. call your friends.......it is the right thing to do.
 
snakeblitz33

snakeblitz33

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I know there is nothing I can say to ease your emotional distress. My words may seem emotionless coming from a computer screen, but they aren't. Everything will be ok, you will work through it. Take it one minute at a time, one day at a time. Consider calling that number and talking with someone immediately. I am sending you and your family my prayers.
 
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flower

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Originally Posted by Siptang http:///t/390308/i-need-some-prayers-positive-thoughts-well-wishes#post_3455621
Most of you guys know what happened to me.
Recently my buddy had a miscarriage and it's taking a toll on me even more. I'm having nightmares and I'm sleeping 2 hours a night and it's taking a toll on me both mentally , physically and spiritually. I'm having it really rough last couple of days and I'm having suicidal impulses and I know I can't leave in a cowardly way and I love my wife way too much for it but it's really hard.
I would really appreciate some prayers for those who believe, positive thoughts and energy to those who doesn't please.
Sorry for the rant.. I really didn't have any where to rant... I can't have my wife see me this way and I don't want my close friends to drop everything and come to me. It would be too much of a inconvenience.
Thanks for reading and have a great day.
My dear cyber friend...it is never an inconvenience to come to a friends needs. Try to imagine any one of your physical friends and that were feeling the way you do, would you consider it such a hardship to comfort them? Now imagine how hard it would be if something happened to that friend, and how upset and hurt you would feel that he didn't reach out, when you were right there the whole time.
We are happy to be here to encourge you and listen....but it is not the same as actually being there with you, and it sounds to me like you really need a close friend right now. I certainly understand about your wife, she is suffering the same hurts you are. But you need to reach out to someone close to you.
You really need to get some kind of counceling to help you through this, suicidal thoughts need more than cyber friends to help you through. You bet I will say prayers and send all the possitive energy I can.
 
ironeagle2006

ironeagle2006

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Sip this is coming from someone that has survived 7 miscarriages in TOTAL before he was able to be HOLD his kids and be done with the nonstop trying. My ex could not carry a child and lost 6 and she always blamed me for them. My wife she had our Daughter real fast and then waited 2 years for the next one and then had our son. Well the first time she got pregnant she lost that one and almost lost herself. I was HER ROCK and she realized something right then that I can be the rock that she needed. Be there for your wife YES IT HURTS YES YOU WILL GET BLAMED FOR THINGS CALLED DEAL WITH IT FIND SOMETHING ELSE TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN FOR ME IT WAS BLOWING CRAP UP ON THE COMPUTER CLEANING HOUSE REMODELING THE HOUSE CRAP LIKE THAT. [strike]I [/strike]Did whatever it took for my wife to get over her Feelings of not being worthy of being a Mother and soon after she was ready to try again and Bang we ended up with our SON.
Called Never ever take that way out SUICIDE is the cowards way out I have a classmate that lost everything when his WIFE took that way out she killed their kids herself and torched the house. Why the note she left stated she wanted to punish him for not prviding a daughter.
 
spanko

spanko

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Sip, lost my 16 year old to a douche that killed him in a pizzeria robbery. Hard times. A lot of doubt and hurt. People tend to draw into their own bubble to deal with the grief shutting out the others around them.
I decided I wanted to help the others get through it so that was may focus. In doing so it helped me to see how to get through it myself. Grab hold of the ones around you and be there for them. Your energy put into helping them will come back to you and in turn get you through.
It worked for me anyway. I do believe that you get what you put out and in my case it was love, support and healing.
 
deejeff442

deejeff442

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hey richard as you know i have had to deal with two people that took their own life recently as i know you have to with a friend.step back and look to see what has happened with your friends family and his friends.i bet every one of them is saying i wish he would have said something.i know my good friend mark didnt and we will never really know why he did what he did to himself.as far as all of us who knew and loved him we wished we could have seen something you need to get someone to help you with this.it is no good to keep it inside .
 
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siptang

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As requested, I went and spoke to a counselor (assistant pastor at my church).
I do feel little better now that I'm with my wife by my side. I went ahead and comforted the friend who just had a miscarriage and cried with them.
I think we comforted each other. I'm meeting up with counselor again at 3 to deal with some of my emotional baggages.
I'm not emotionally weak person by all means but this kind of thing breaks even the strongest man.
For last couple of nights, I saw my child ' s face as he lays there dead and its devastating and helpless feeling and I wake up crying trembling wanting hold him.I know and looked down upon people who took easy way out but I can now relate to some as depression is a serious illness.
and that everyone needs help to make out of this kind of ordeal.
Thank you so much for advises, support and love guys.
I'm getting better and road to recovert isn't easy but I'm trying.
Thanks for reading my rants and being friends that I can lean on.
Thanks.
I'm typing this on my phone at church cafeteria so please excuse any typos or anything of sprt.
Richard.
 
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siptang

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After church, I have decided to take a long walk on a beach with my wife and talk then to all the lfs to look and magbe buy a frag or two.
When my gift cert come from swf, I will really go at it.
Today is going to be a good day.
 
reefraff

reefraff

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Frag shopping cures a lot of ailments LOL!
Being there for your friend is probably some of the best therapy you can do for yourself.
 
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