baxter tobins black cat is not doing well .he always gets sick when tobin would go into the hospital. i will not intervene ,we are just making him as comfortable as possible but everyone knew if tobin died bax would probably follow him and vice versa .they were inseperable . tobin will be happy to have his 'little black hemmoroid' as we called him .on our last night outside together we saw the most beautiful shooting star the tail of it was green and it lit up the sky twice as it was passing ,tobin said let this one be ours,when i was outside the other night i saw another one with a green tail i know it was him ,i hope no one minds me venting here its nights like this that are the hardest im so used to every 2 hours checking his temperature and changing the pillowcases from his night sweats i dont think i'll ever sleep the same again. the kids and i are moved into the house in midland all my furniture and the tank are still at the odessa house the tank will be picked up by buddy the fish guy this sunday and the furniture will have to wait until i can find a truck and someone to help move it .tobin had told me the night before he died that he wanted buddy to have his tank ,when i think about it he has said alot of things like that here in the last few weeks i guess i just didnt put 2 and 2 together ,he knew ,i just wish he would have told me, i miss him so much already .everything still smells like him ,bob is having a hard time with it he carries tobins picture with him everywhere . we ordered tobin a wheelchair the day after he got out of the hospital and it was delivered today i think we will donate it to the cancer center that treated him , ok ive talked enough thanks for anyone who is still listening to me ramble love you...jenny