I'm sorry things are rough for you right now man
I go through this all the time. Part of the reason I hung on to that 200DD for as long as I did was that I knew I'd regain interest in the hobby sooner than later. That's one of the reasons I like to keep a backup for a lot of the things that regularly need replaced like filter media and RODI supplies: not only is it convenient when I need to change stuff out, but when I get caught-up in other things (usually another hobby. Right now it's kayaking, LOL) I can focus on those things and the tank requires less effort since I don't have to go out of my way to order things, wait for them to be delivered, then find time to do the maintenance. All I have to do is set aside a few minutes to actually do stuff.I think I just lost interest in the hobby there for a little while, but its time to get back into it.