Just a little story that will hopefully cheer you up. I dated my ex for a very intense year and a half. It was better then I ever thought a relationship could be. We rarely argued, had a great time together and made a lot of plans for the future. We both decided this was it.
Then..one day things blew up. Not even sure how it happened. I was heartbroken and lost. I was just getting out of my teen years and thought I had my life all planned out and then nothing. He just couldn't give me a GOOD reason why this was happening.
I still loved him and we saw each other on and off for another 8 or 9 months, but didn't date. Each time I saw him it hurt. Finally I got tired of trying to see something that wasn't there. So I moved on the best I could. The place I was working at closed up and the same day I found out my roommate had been pocketing the rent so we were evicted. I then moved to another state with a male friend (he really was only a friend). I talked to my ex a few times over the years and many times he tried to get me back but I just couldn't put the feeling of being thrown away past me so I always said no. I still loved him though.
3 years later I somehow ended up married to my friend I moved in with. I guess I figured this was as good as it gets. He was not a good person, but I didn't have enough feelings for him to worry about getting hurt again so somehow it worked. The marriage lasted 2 years. While I was married I never spoke to my ex.
When I left my husband and moved back to St. Louis I tried to surround myself with family and friends and resigned to the fact I was just not cut out for the whole relationship thing. 2 days after I came back I was at the Zoo with my niece and low and behold there is my ex.
We have been blissfully married for 3 years, together for 6 and are trying for our first little person. I think what it all comes down to is that when it is supposed to happen it will happen. Just try to stay on a good path until you get there.
Hope this helps a little
