Hey Scoobydoo..
Congrats on quiting smoking,
We all have our setbacks... take one day at a time, you can do it.
here is my story
After smoking for 5 years... I quit smoking in 1982 cold turkey, it was difficult, but I had alot of family encouragement (even though most of them smoke, would not smoke around me out of consideration)
I started smoking again in 1999, after my mom died suddenly of massive heart attack Jan 16, (she was only 68). My mom and I were very close and I had a hard time dealing with her death. I had moved to Florida in 1996 to take care of my father in law (who was a sweetheart), before moving to Florida I was main helper for mom with her finances, appts, etc..., I made promise to my mom I would move back to NY after my father in law passed away, Mom didn't want me to leave, but understood, I felt I had to do this. My father in law didn't have anyone, his wife died in 1993.. Most of my sibling live in Upstate NY so mom was still surrounded by family, and I did go home every summer for a couple of weeks after I left NY.
My Father in Law died Feb 16th, exactly one month after my Mom. And My marriage broke up all in the same time frame.. (he is alcholic, My father in Law open my eyes, by asking me how I put up with it for 20 years, after thinking about that one for awhile the answer was, it wan't easy, and I couldn't handle it anymore).. It was all too much for me to handle. I started smoking again, and drinking also. Went up to chain smoker status in no time flat. I felt like crap.. I knew I had to quit. I never was much of a drinker, so I stopped drinking within a couple months of repeated hangovers..
The end of 1999, I met a wonderful man, (we are now married) he smoked also, but said if I wanted to quit, he would also quit. so the journey began. We started the patches, then wellbutrin, then both together, He was able to quit with them, but I still puffed on... finally after bout of year of failure to quit, I woke up one morning knowing if I didn't quit it was gonna be the death of me, I was losing weight fast (down to 82 pounds, my doctor was threatening to put me in the hospital and put in a feeding tube cause instead of eating I was smoking, I felt like crap, I was short of breath). I quit the patches, the
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, and went cold turkey.. I fnally conquered it..
Today I am still smoke free.. and much healthier
Yes it was harder to quit the 2nd time round.
My husband has started smoking again, but I don't want to ever start again.
I still get a craving every now and again, but I stand strong...
Anywho, Thats my story.
Misty