I know what you are going through. I had 6 SW tanks I lost when I was divorced 6 yrs ago. After struggling financially for afew yrs, I finally found Mr right, and I have the best looking tank ever! It will be worth the wait, it so a great hobby if you share it, and can afford it! Makes all the difference. I plan on being on this site a long time, so when you are ready, get that 300 going and afew of us will be glad to help get you started again
Stay in touch, and good luck, you will begin to see a silver lining before you know it
BTW, I would give it all up again if I had to choose between my tanks and my man